As I become more aware of the power and importance of one's inner dialog, I'm realizing that mine is very nurturing to my inner child.
Last night Ann called me Peter Pan, saying that my inner child rules me; I'm not sure if this is good or bad, but I like who I am and I enjoy entertaining my inner child just as I enjoy entertaining my son. I believe we need to care for ourselves before we can truly care for others.
Apr 19, 2007
Mar 31, 2007
A Dream: Metaphysical Expression of Personal Light
I just woke from another one of my surreal dreams. As this one relates to the topic of light, which I've recently been contemplating the spiritual implications of, I thought I'd share it.
"Metaphysical expression of personal light," this was the phrase in my mind upon waking. I wasn't entirely sure what metaphysical meant so I had to look it up.
Speaking with Ann in my dream, I was trying to show her how grabbing hold of something with the elongated orbs of light that extend from the arms, (which were attached to the rest of the orbs of light in the body) would not only stretch her light beyond her body but would stretch her body. This would greatly help heal her sore back muscles as stretching her light was somehow very health and healing for the body and for released tension.
In my dream it seemed as though I could simply grab her light and stretch it out from her physical frame. This seemed such a simple and obvious thing that it was often overlooked. I remember seeing a group of children playing together; they were playing follow the leader or ring around the roses or something like that. Anyway, I noticed how they were stretching and pulling on one others light and how natural it was for them. I knew that with focus and intent, this natural ability could return powerful results.
My waking mind says, perhaps this idea was flipped in my dream. Perhaps in stretching the physical body it opens the cells to release their light or improve the flow of light and health in the body. Or perhaps this process was simply representative of spiritual interactions between people. Whatever the case, the meaning and implementation of it is not so obvious to me now.
"Metaphysical expression of personal light," this was the phrase in my mind upon waking. I wasn't entirely sure what metaphysical meant so I had to look it up.
Speaking with Ann in my dream, I was trying to show her how grabbing hold of something with the elongated orbs of light that extend from the arms, (which were attached to the rest of the orbs of light in the body) would not only stretch her light beyond her body but would stretch her body. This would greatly help heal her sore back muscles as stretching her light was somehow very health and healing for the body and for released tension.
In my dream it seemed as though I could simply grab her light and stretch it out from her physical frame. This seemed such a simple and obvious thing that it was often overlooked. I remember seeing a group of children playing together; they were playing follow the leader or ring around the roses or something like that. Anyway, I noticed how they were stretching and pulling on one others light and how natural it was for them. I knew that with focus and intent, this natural ability could return powerful results.
My waking mind says, perhaps this idea was flipped in my dream. Perhaps in stretching the physical body it opens the cells to release their light or improve the flow of light and health in the body. Or perhaps this process was simply representative of spiritual interactions between people. Whatever the case, the meaning and implementation of it is not so obvious to me now.
Mar 27, 2007
Happy First Birthday Son!
I wrote this as a letter to my son, but decided to share parts of it that express how I feel as a father.
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My son, this is the first letter I’ve attempted to write you, and I must say your mother is brilliant for suggesting it. Her heart is always on your well being and happiness...
I continue to be amazed at how well you handle the turmoil of large social events and new situations which cause most children to feel anxious and over stimulated. You have such a presence of strength and inner calmness about you...
I know I'm biased, but both Ann and I have been struck with the strong impression that you are one of Heavenly Fathers choice children and that there are great works for you to accomplish in this life. I couldn’t put my finger on it at first, but when I told your mother that I have a deep respect for you, (which seemed odd as you were an infant who could do little more that eat, drink, and process) she immediately agreed and said she felt the same way. I may not remember you, but my spirit knows your spirit, and I’m honored to be your father in this life.
You are such a blessing in our lives son. I’m a young Dad, a new Dad, but I’ll tell you now what my parents told me. You will not know, until the day you hold your own child in your arms, how much I love you. To be honest, I was taken back by it, as each day my capacity to love grew to new heights...
I’m not perfect and I’ll make mistakes, but know that I will always cherish you, I would die for you and I can think of no greater reward than to stand before my God and be able to tell him I was a good husband and father. This is my greatest hope and my desire.
There will be days (particularly in your teens), when you tell me you hate me and feel much anger toward me. Yes, this will break my heart, but only for a moment, for I know what it’s like to be a teenager and such moments will pass. O and while I’m on the topic, I should warn you that I will never tolerate disrespect towards your mother. I love her deeply and you are very blessed to have a mother who loves and cares for you so deeply...
Well, this doesn’t quite seem like a first birthday letter does it? You’ll get use to that with me. I don’t always say a lot, but there’s a lot going on beneath the surface of your old man. How I wish I could take a peak into the future and see you become the man you are meant to be.
Happy Birthday Son,
Love Dad
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My son, this is the first letter I’ve attempted to write you, and I must say your mother is brilliant for suggesting it. Her heart is always on your well being and happiness...
I continue to be amazed at how well you handle the turmoil of large social events and new situations which cause most children to feel anxious and over stimulated. You have such a presence of strength and inner calmness about you...
I know I'm biased, but both Ann and I have been struck with the strong impression that you are one of Heavenly Fathers choice children and that there are great works for you to accomplish in this life. I couldn’t put my finger on it at first, but when I told your mother that I have a deep respect for you, (which seemed odd as you were an infant who could do little more that eat, drink, and process) she immediately agreed and said she felt the same way. I may not remember you, but my spirit knows your spirit, and I’m honored to be your father in this life.
You are such a blessing in our lives son. I’m a young Dad, a new Dad, but I’ll tell you now what my parents told me. You will not know, until the day you hold your own child in your arms, how much I love you. To be honest, I was taken back by it, as each day my capacity to love grew to new heights...
I’m not perfect and I’ll make mistakes, but know that I will always cherish you, I would die for you and I can think of no greater reward than to stand before my God and be able to tell him I was a good husband and father. This is my greatest hope and my desire.
There will be days (particularly in your teens), when you tell me you hate me and feel much anger toward me. Yes, this will break my heart, but only for a moment, for I know what it’s like to be a teenager and such moments will pass. O and while I’m on the topic, I should warn you that I will never tolerate disrespect towards your mother. I love her deeply and you are very blessed to have a mother who loves and cares for you so deeply...
Well, this doesn’t quite seem like a first birthday letter does it? You’ll get use to that with me. I don’t always say a lot, but there’s a lot going on beneath the surface of your old man. How I wish I could take a peak into the future and see you become the man you are meant to be.
Happy Birthday Son,
Love Dad
Feb 19, 2007
Spiritual Self Image
For several months, something has been taking shape in my mind. I believe we're all born with a "spiritual self image" which can guide us to personal greatness or haunt us with what could be. We are either moving closer toward this or further from it.
In my youth I often pursued this self-image which is stamped upon my soul, but for the past several years, my focus has been primarily on worldly progression and accomplishment while on the spiritual plane I've coasted.
Time now seems to be accelerating and I cannot help but feel as though my days of procrastination are quickly coming to an end. It's as though a crossroad is upon me in which certain changes must be realized in my life. I also have a sense that there is knowledge, understanding and wisdom which needs to be obtained in order to receive essential guidance for my progression. I don't know why I feel a sudden urgency to reach this new plane, but reach it I must.
I'm not sure how much I’m willing to share at this time. There are realizations and strong impressions which have come upon me, but until I better understand them myself, I'd rather keep them internal.
In my youth I often pursued this self-image which is stamped upon my soul, but for the past several years, my focus has been primarily on worldly progression and accomplishment while on the spiritual plane I've coasted.
Time now seems to be accelerating and I cannot help but feel as though my days of procrastination are quickly coming to an end. It's as though a crossroad is upon me in which certain changes must be realized in my life. I also have a sense that there is knowledge, understanding and wisdom which needs to be obtained in order to receive essential guidance for my progression. I don't know why I feel a sudden urgency to reach this new plane, but reach it I must.
I'm not sure how much I’m willing to share at this time. There are realizations and strong impressions which have come upon me, but until I better understand them myself, I'd rather keep them internal.
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